u are here!!

I am so happy rite now I cannot explain in words what i feel you are here wit me rite next to me i feel ur presence wit all my heart! i talked 2 u again after almost 3 yrs......I cant even believe it. i think i dont actually yet realize what s happening to me it s either im very tired or i got no energy left to think actually about what i feel!! it s overjoyed that s how i feel i love u wit alll my heart i would screammm rite now that!!!! I AlWAYS LOVED U BABy!! u kno that and i kno it too we both rite now are living the inner peace that we didnt find all these yrs we finally can be completly happy because we both know the other one is ok and there next to the other one !! omg i missed u sooooo muchhh and u are here!! im goin to sleep now n dream u baby!! thank u for blessing me GOD!!!

It's all POISON!

So i had this convo wit this man that just made me think over n over bout this song of NAS- what goes around......made me think about how some people are, the world is and is going. One man, a beautiful person, once told me : "I see your soul as just being i see you as Diana, not Diana from Romania, or for race, nor religion just Diana!" See when are we going to learn and see beneath the surface? When will we be able to just treat the other person as a whole and not judge them by their color, race, nationality, religion n so on? Well I would love to meet more persons like the one I said about but if I won't Im happy I met at least one. When will we be able to see the others with our soul? We ain't able to do that anymore, we just like to judge. For some they ain't able to see with their souls also cuz they don't have any, but others that have are to busy to get money, be successful, cheat, lie etc. We lost our souls but some of us are strong enough to find em back. Search for your soul!

A real man....

That may come as a joke lol...but you know there always was a real man and always will be! I created him in my mind, he's in my heart and nobody can take him out of there...I even found him...
I had moments in my life when I said there is no one for me, no real man left out but then I always had that faith of finding the man in my heart, that real man that I created. I wanned to find him so many times, I needed a real man, maybe I was weak, maybe I needed a man for affection, or maybe I just needed a man cuz I was so damn insecure.
But now, I don't! I just need to be with maself, I need to find me again, I need to search for what I have been loosing with all the wrong men I have been with, I've learned a lot from all the mistakes I have done and now I just need to keep learnin and be stronger and more secure for when Ima be with my real man!
Some may not understand that...most women I kno they won't and maybe also a lot of men wouldn't understand that like why do I need time to figure out bout me? why do I need the time to be with maself? Well it's cuz I DON'T NEED to be in a DEPENDENT relationship. I ve been in one for 5 years and it's not good we destroyed a lot of eachother....I decided to learn from all we did and not to that again, I hope he did too....if he didn't he will one day....

Im a stronger woman now and I can be on my own, till ima be wit my strong man, what I want from that man is not to be there for me all the time but be there when I need him to be, I don't need him to call me every hour, I need him to call me when he needs me or when he's happy n wants to share that wit me or when he's sad and wants also to share it wit me. I don't want to depend on him, cuz I m an independent woman I wanna need your love but yet dont depend on it. I want you to feed me wit your love all the time and I kno i will do the same to you. All I'm sayin here is a pure love, an independent love that just is filled with pure love not bad or negative energy not thoughts of jealousy.....but...what is jealousy anyway?
A great man told me smth very interesting just the same thing as I believe about jealousy in a relationship.....I mean why waste time n energy in that? why think that I could be wit other man than wit u? If I am wit you it means im givin u my all, and if I do it means it's that real love we've been searching for, and u don't have to question it just feel it don't think bout what Ima do, where Ima go, just feel my love n feed me wit ur love. Why is that so hard for most of us? I mean it was damn hard for me too....I ve been jealous, n that s also cuz I used to be insecure....but being on my own thinking bout all this situations made me realize how much easier would be without this thing named JEALOUSY....

I would love to find a man that would be able to keep us connected through our mind n spirit, that would just be there n feel him n he would feel me n when the time is for us to be together to get together. I need to do so many things rite now.....n I feel that I gotta do them for maself, be selfish for once in my life, think about what I really wanna do not what that n that wants me to do....I feel like if there s really love between us WE WILL BE TOGETHER baby.....