u are here!!

I am so happy rite now I cannot explain in words what i feel you are here wit me rite next to me i feel ur presence wit all my heart! i talked 2 u again after almost 3 yrs......I cant even believe it. i think i dont actually yet realize what s happening to me it s either im very tired or i got no energy left to think actually about what i feel!! it s overjoyed that s how i feel i love u wit alll my heart i would screammm rite now that!!!! I AlWAYS LOVED U BABy!! u kno that and i kno it too we both rite now are living the inner peace that we didnt find all these yrs we finally can be completly happy because we both know the other one is ok and there next to the other one !! omg i missed u sooooo muchhh and u are here!! im goin to sleep now n dream u baby!! thank u for blessing me GOD!!!

It's all POISON!

So i had this convo wit this man that just made me think over n over bout this song of NAS- what goes around......made me think about how some people are, the world is and is going. One man, a beautiful person, once told me : "I see your soul as just being i see you as Diana, not Diana from Romania, or for race, nor religion just Diana!" See when are we going to learn and see beneath the surface? When will we be able to just treat the other person as a whole and not judge them by their color, race, nationality, religion n so on? Well I would love to meet more persons like the one I said about but if I won't Im happy I met at least one. When will we be able to see the others with our soul? We ain't able to do that anymore, we just like to judge. For some they ain't able to see with their souls also cuz they don't have any, but others that have are to busy to get money, be successful, cheat, lie etc. We lost our souls but some of us are strong enough to find em back. Search for your soul!

A real man....

That may come as a joke lol...but you know there always was a real man and always will be! I created him in my mind, he's in my heart and nobody can take him out of there...I even found him...
I had moments in my life when I said there is no one for me, no real man left out but then I always had that faith of finding the man in my heart, that real man that I created. I wanned to find him so many times, I needed a real man, maybe I was weak, maybe I needed a man for affection, or maybe I just needed a man cuz I was so damn insecure.
But now, I don't! I just need to be with maself, I need to find me again, I need to search for what I have been loosing with all the wrong men I have been with, I've learned a lot from all the mistakes I have done and now I just need to keep learnin and be stronger and more secure for when Ima be with my real man!
Some may not understand that...most women I kno they won't and maybe also a lot of men wouldn't understand that like why do I need time to figure out bout me? why do I need the time to be with maself? Well it's cuz I DON'T NEED to be in a DEPENDENT relationship. I ve been in one for 5 years and it's not good we destroyed a lot of eachother....I decided to learn from all we did and not to that again, I hope he did too....if he didn't he will one day....

Im a stronger woman now and I can be on my own, till ima be wit my strong man, what I want from that man is not to be there for me all the time but be there when I need him to be, I don't need him to call me every hour, I need him to call me when he needs me or when he's happy n wants to share that wit me or when he's sad and wants also to share it wit me. I don't want to depend on him, cuz I m an independent woman I wanna need your love but yet dont depend on it. I want you to feed me wit your love all the time and I kno i will do the same to you. All I'm sayin here is a pure love, an independent love that just is filled with pure love not bad or negative energy not thoughts of jealousy.....but...what is jealousy anyway?
A great man told me smth very interesting just the same thing as I believe about jealousy in a relationship.....I mean why waste time n energy in that? why think that I could be wit other man than wit u? If I am wit you it means im givin u my all, and if I do it means it's that real love we've been searching for, and u don't have to question it just feel it don't think bout what Ima do, where Ima go, just feel my love n feed me wit ur love. Why is that so hard for most of us? I mean it was damn hard for me too....I ve been jealous, n that s also cuz I used to be insecure....but being on my own thinking bout all this situations made me realize how much easier would be without this thing named JEALOUSY....

I would love to find a man that would be able to keep us connected through our mind n spirit, that would just be there n feel him n he would feel me n when the time is for us to be together to get together. I need to do so many things rite now.....n I feel that I gotta do them for maself, be selfish for once in my life, think about what I really wanna do not what that n that wants me to do....I feel like if there s really love between us WE WILL BE TOGETHER baby.....

inspiring :)

Something Bout You

Sit back relax your mind
Just let my love flow through you
Cause all of this time
My love is with you
And you'll never have to worry
Cause I wanna spend my life wit you
You changed my world
My dreams have come true
Something about you
That I can't explain
And it's driving me crazy
That I'm gonna say
Something about the way
You hold me
I love you
There's something inside you
That keeps calling me
And it's taking me places
That I've never seen
I'm not afraid to learn
From memories
I love you

I've never contemplated
That's why it feels so right
A heaven sent love
A match made for two
Don't take your love for granted
Cause love won't wait for you, no baby
Hold on to what your
Heart is telling you
Crying at night when you're
Not by my side thinking about you
Let's take a chance take my life
And romance,
Let my love flow through you
Promise to live
Let's fulfill all your dreams
(Don't let it slip away)
No no no cause my love's here for you
Baby come face the truth
Don't run away just hold on to my love

Chorus

Baby I love baby i need you baby i love
Holding you tight through the night
Feels so right baby
Baby I love you (Bout the way you kiss me)
Baby I need you (Don't you ever leave)
Baby I love (Bout the way you love me)
Holding you tight through the night feels so right

Chorus

I love you I love you I love you I love you
I need you I need you
See Diana there's something you should know
You make the world go round in my head
There's something that you do to me
I love you see I love you baby

Chorus

Let me give you something
That you deserve
Let me do the things that
Needs to be done to you
I love you been a long time
Since we got together
I'm the man of choosing
What you need and
If that's not enough
See it's turning down the light
And light a candle tonite
Cause tonite it's your night
To do what you want
To this here body
It's alright


I miss u so much that it hurts...

Feel the love!

I felt the love from far away this nite, I felt the love he sent to u , through you, I felt that i connected to both ur beautiful souls, you both are spiritual soul mates and u spread the love pass human perception! I felt the positive energy u are sending through ur angels! Oh God is havin soo much FUN gettin us together like that! well I say IT WAS ABOUT TIME!!! I guess he waited till I was ready to receive all this, I couldn't possibly do it let's say 2 or 3 months ago, or 1, 2 ...5 yrs ago, I wasn't ready for that...I couldn't receive all this LOVE N POSITIVE ENERGY since I wasn't on a good mental level with my own mind so how should I be able to connect to other minds? But now day by day I feel more connected 2 my soul n my mind so now I could say I am ready to receive all u gotta give to me! Every dream I had it s so much closer to get reality I feel it's so much easier and all this positive energy that I feel it's sent from God through his Angels and it's so wonderful to receive it and feel it all around!!! I m so much stronger than yesterday and SO much powerful then months ago I sometimes look at me and don't recognize me it s a beautiful thing to feel and see, love me again!

PS:
I thank you, for letting me go, to feel all these beautiful feelings in this moment!

Fuck physical, let's caress each others spirit...

"Fuck physical, let's caress each others spirit...." this is one of the most powerful thing i ve recently have heard from a man( well just by now i heard more powerful things than that but ima talk but that some other time!!).....is from a song....but hearin it, comin from a man makes me wonder if there are still those kinda men left out there....I wanna believe they are, it s kinda comforting to think and believe that, I will find you, when the time's gon be right.

Ma sista once told me, "God wanned u to see that b4, he tried desperately to make u see it in the purest way possible THROUGH LOVE...."
When I say LOVE I mean LOVE ....I have so many things to say about this....
see there are 2 kinds of love...or at least this is wat i have experienced in my past yrs, the physical love and the spiritual love let's just categorize them like this...
The physical love - hurts, changes u , dependent, obsessive, crazy, lust, boring, limited, aggressive, ignorant, dying, smile, sex, fear, jealousy, body,
The spiritual love - doesn't hurt, feels right, feelin our souls, seeing our souls, connection for life, feeling safe, secure yet independent, happy, laughs, LOVE, touchin my soul, spirit, mind, feeling u even from far, knowing u gon love me till the day u die and knowing ima love u wit all my heart till the day imma die!
Few words to describe it but enough to know the difference and to understand....what i meant.
God wanned me to kno this but still I couldn't allow myself to be selfish and just dont think bout you how much I would hurt you and just think HOW MUCH HAPPINESS HE WOULD BRING....
He still does, the spiritual love lives in us, inside us he is feeding himself with my love I feel he is taking from it but I have so much to offer that he can take as much as he wants bcause all that he s givin back is more. Take it and don't question it! receive the love and dont question how was sent, that the purest way to LOVE......

Thank you God for allowin me to find out what spiritual love is,.....im blessed